I am enjoying a fresh arising of Love again, in a particular particularization of Love for someone ~ but please do not rush ahead to decide what I mean by this Love. We usually do that, someone says "love" and automatically we think, before even giving time to think, we know what that "love" is the person speaks of. How can we conceptually know anything, anyway, that we can only think of? She and I talk every few days, getting acquainted. I see we are simply sharing along, not trying to make this relationship any particular kind of relationship, like just friends, lovers, spiritual soul mates. So, we are in the moment, not knowing what is really happening except that sharing is happening. We are like two persons floating down a river in a boat, to come from nowhere and arrive at nowhere, just flowing with the flow, and not knowing where the river begins or where it ends, and not knowing when we entered it, or possibly we have always been in it ~ if we look closely, real closely, we can see there is no one point of beginning for the river, no specific place of ending, so no beginning and no ending. The river always is here with us and we with it. This feeling of not needing to get to somewhere is a welcome relief, a subtle joy.

When we are not sharing together, I feel these gentle feelings arising of this dear one. I would call these feelings of Love. I would not call them Love, for Love is not a feeling. I would not call them any specific kind of or feeling of Love, like friendship Love, romantic Love, anything like that. These feelings come and go, from and into deeper than body and mind, and I simply allow them to come and go fluently. These feelings like the painter painting a painting, my not needing to know the why of any movement of the brush, so free of meaning, purpose, outcome ~ Love is free of these pragmatic interests. Life gives this one moment, is that not enough?

I become curious about these feelings, and find being curious a way to be with the mystery of Grace surfacing in these sensations. Yet, this curiosity is not taken seriously, more as a light, joyful playfulness. If I take this too seriously, I am again caught up in "I," not Life, Love, Grace, gladdened surrender to God. And I do trust that a higher Intelligence, call It what you will, orchestrates our meeting on this journey with particular others, for we each have a gift for each other. That meeting may be for a moment or a lifetime, yet the meeting is holy through-and-through, and absolutely mysterious. In some sense, only through surrender to Grace can we be fully present to it and each other. Any agenda to make the meeting together what "I" think it should be or want it to be obstructs the flow of Grace.

At times, a thought arises as to what the feelings arising and dissolving might mean, then I let go of that, knowing they do not have to mean anything particular. Meaning best arises for us when we simply receive and do not try to find a meaning or the meaning. This above is what I am still learning from resting in Silence, this learning to let myself enjoy equanimity amidst all that comes and goes, not trying to find some meaning, relishing the mystery of Life in its ordinariness, engaging curiosity without feeling I must arrive at some conclusion of purpose. Is it not true, Love is its own meaning, so Life is its own meaning? God is the meaning of God, not something in addition to God? Can we relax into this ever-present, flowing fullness, cease acting from a sense of lack, not trying to get something from our simply being present, and enjoy the equanimity of Love embracing all and everyone, including the self, equally? And would it not be true, to be summoned to enfold anyone in Grace is a lesson on the summons to enfold everyone in Grace?

Only in this spaciousness of not for and not against, do I find Love freely arising as Love and being to heart and mind an inspiration of untouchable peace. Only in this non-striving, wherein I trust without using faith as a means to grasp at the unknowable or push it away, do I enjoy inner harmony. This is like bicycling. When out on the road, I find the most joy in the unthought-out process of just cycling. I am not thinking about how to, where I am, how far from the end. Cycling is happening. Life is like that, Love too, sacred sharing like that. For Life and Love are one, in harmony, in the receptivity of nonresistance. Pure welcome happens through your being to another being, so being together happens. This happening is communion; oneness loves through other meeting with other, not as object, but as subject meeting subject.

in
Silence

against
no one
nothing
anywhere

purely receptive
simply welcoming

when against
disharmony

not against
so
not for

here
this
is

being
in Love

where
no felt need to
be against
or for

just to
love
with Love

in inner harmony
'above'
thoughts of Love
feelings of Love

yes
these thoughts arise
yes
these feelings arise

and sometimes
they do not

for these feelings and thoughts
arise in "I" that arises and dissolves

in this Silence of nonattachment to "I"
one knows
one does not have Love for anyone
for "I" cannot possess Love
to give Love

in
being in Love

the sense of "I love you" arises for someone
while sometimes that sense is not present

yet
Love is present
Love being present is the
ground for a new emergence of the sense of Love
and for acting lovingly in absence of feelings of Love

"I"
clothes the sense of Love with "I"
and wears it as Love "I have" for someone

yet here too
this is the way of Love
to love through the "I" that thinks it has Love
when it cannot have Love, not anything

so
Love arising and dissolving in Silence
teaches us the nature of Love and how better
not to cling to Love or loving

we may fear
in this letting go
we will become unloving

rather
we become
more truly loving

for in allowing the spaciousness for Love
to come and go in Its own freedom
to be Love, to be un-possessed, to be un-claimed

we become
open channels
for Love to flow freely
and, so, Love flows more freely

we find, then, this harmony
of Love not against, not for,
Love dancing Its dance through us

we, then, can rest from
trying to love
seeking love
efforting not to lose love
working to prove we do love

we, then, can rest from
being divided by being against or for
for in the harmony of Love exist no opposites

Silence
resting, receptive
we learn how to be
so be in Love

*All material, unless another source is cited, is authored by the presenter of Lotus of Heart, Brian Kenneth Wilcox, Florida USA. Use of the material is permitted; Brian only requests that credit be given and to be notified at 77ahavah77@gmail.com .

*Brian's book, An Ache for Union, is available through major booksellers.

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The Sacred in Me bows
to the Sacred in You